today i didn't use my phone.
i had 14 minutes of screen time.
i started to get my shit done cuz it's "summer break" (though summer here starts on june 22nd) and now I have time to fix my messy life.
after cleaning my room and doing some chores, i felt good with myself, it wasn't as tiring as i expected. It's just that I was so sick of school that it felt like a blessing.
I started to read some pending books I was interested in.
Sometimes, when I was tired, I'd just stare at nothing in particular, because my mind was too bloated to keep reading, and didn't want to grab my phone.
When I got my shit done, it was like 6pm and I had a lot of free time, and I'd just don't know what to do next. I was bored. Life felt weird, like if it had a different color, or vibe.
The boredom was painful but i was killing it by writing.
Not gonna lie, I felt more aware and focused on real life, because as an introverted person I tend to overthink and spend too much time on my inner world, which distracts me from my present, from what's happening around. I'm doing this because I want to be better and I have the chance (finally) to be.